Sean's Journal
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I woke up at 6:20am and actually got out of bed. My new resolution is to get up around 6:30am each work day in order to have a cup of coffee and a bowl of cereal, get dressed leisurely and get to work on time.

I'm trying to instill some discipline in my life. Of course, this weekend will be spent in complete rapture of my new computer that I won which miraculously is arriving today, on my birthday? The world must be coming to an end.

I'm bothered by so many things right now. I'm bothered that the best BIG GOAL I could come up with was 'deflower Britney Spears'. I'm bothered that I even consider that a goal. I'm bothered that the goal is only loosely tied to the actual act of sex and more to the fact I want the world to shut up about her virginity, her 'being caught between woman and girl'. Shut up - she's a piece of marketing material.

I've tried six times in the last two weeks to write a novel. Allow me to clarify, I tried to come up with an idea for a novel six times. I couldn't think of any story I wanted to tell. I realized that I put a good amount of weight on the fact I am a storyteller and I don't have any story's to tell. That, my friends, isn't irony, it is just sad. My solution to this is to learn how to tell other people's stories. Wait, I think that is a gossip, not a storyteller. Geesh.

My BIG GOAL is to be worshipped by a massive group of followers who are willing to kill and be killed for my amuse..er cause.

My BIG GOAL is to become a Super Villain and hold the world hostage. Why isn't my BG to become a Super Hero? In my warped sense of Good and Evil, I just can't imaging Good being as strong as Evil. Yes, this is contradictory to my political teachings that say people are inherently good - that ties more into the state of nature. Nature is inherently good. Nature likes balance and that balance, for the most part, allows life to flourish.

My BIG GOAL is to open a philosophy school where people come to listen to me talk about life, the universe, and the quality of the chicken salad at the deli down the street.

Someone told me that life needs to be down in babysteps. TODAY'S GOAL: Finish my latest Ghastly Humour piece regarding Dick Cheney. Write 600 words on a short story. Accomplish something useful and substantial at work to justify my time there.

Okay, talk to you later.

Vale.