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I also don't know what to do with the detritus of my life. Do I throw out the concert ticket or keep it as a souvenier? Do I throw out ATM receipts or keep them for my records? And new junk arrives daily - I can't keep up with it all.

Change from my pocket needs a place to go and I need a consistent place to put my wallet, keys, sunglasses and transit card. Knick knacks are dangerous because the cat loves knocking them over, though a chap at the Ren Faire did mention funtac stuff to hold things in place.

As I was cleaning with my girlfriend, I had wanted to accomplish three things: clean up the area around the computers, clean up the living room, and clean the kitchen. The kitchen really isn't in that bad of shape and we really didn't get to it, but it did get cleared out - things got put away and the sink got cleared of dirty dishes. I ended up rearranging how my computer sat so I could have easier access to the back of it and to keep the chairs out of the walking area. It gave the area a more 'worky' feel, which is good, I feel better not staring at a wall.

What was amazing was the amount of dust and crap that was behind the desks. They haven't been in position for a year, but with a cat -- so much hair! I can't begin to say how much better I feel knowing that area is completely clean.

Of course the living room didn't get cleaned. What did get done though was the hanging of this really cool wall ornament we got at the RenFaire. It is a thick piece of grape vine with metal leaves wrapped around it. Another piece of metal holds a glass votive candle holder. I few weeks ago I got an electric drill/screwdriver and was eager to use it. I was putting in screws everywhere.

We need to rearrange the living room and decided to move my bookcase to one wall across from Therese's, move the futon from under the windows and put our IKEA opala chairs there instead. I guess the coffee table can then go between the chairs making even more room. We need to get a different shelf thing for the TV/VCR/DVD player as my old microwave cart is too wobbly.

I also want to put us on a schedule that every night we spend time cleaning stuff up so it never has to be an all day chore. My past attempts at doing this have failed. I just lack motivation when I get home at night. Yet, being surrounded by chaos wears on my psyche. Clothing shouldn't just be laying about the hallway, yet for some reason, there sat a pair of my pants and I couldn't tell you why I allowed them to sit there for so long.

I didn't grow up in a clean house. By the time I came along my Mom had stopped even pretending it was possible after raising 6 children. I want to live in a clean house though. I don't want clutter, I want beauty. I want to look about me and say 'wow, I live here' not 'yep, this looks like a place I would live in'.